NO. 100th

its my hundred post. after like how long? haha i started this blog like 1 year ago. it started rotting after a few days. and i revived it a few months ago. and i finally hit the 100th.

but i'm not exactly in a celebratory mood. stupid me almost cried in the mrt today. why? i dunno. i think it must be all the ballads that i haven been listening to. just like the one thats playing now. but its just too nice to stop listening. contradictory? i know. i guess it has taken its toll on me. i just started to think of things happening today. i almost teared. its really when you meet the moment where you really have to blink hard to fight back your tears. really hard. i think if there was anyone looking they might have thought i had some problem with my eyes. stupid me. stupid stupid me.

i really have this urge to work this holiday. like start immediately right after the paper. crazy? maybe. job hunt after exams is the first thing on my list since i wont be out for a couple of days. no dates. no.

i kinda got better after fooling around with my sister. she never fail to make me laugh at times luh. its just sometime SOMETIMES she gets on my nerve. well who ask my mum to get me a sister 8 years younger than me. i dun seem to act my age at home. seventeen? more like seven. maybe some others maybe laughing when they're reading this particular sentence. cos i might not even act my age in sch sometimes. always fooling ard and poking people eh. ha.

anw. this marks the end of my 100th post. nothing interesting in particular for me to mention.nothing special.

the loneliness of being alone sometimes gets to your head. and hit you hard right there. at the back. its just somedays. where things dun seem to fall into place. dun seem to make you happy. dun seem to feel right for you. and i never want these days to vist me so often. i wanna be as happy as a lark. as cheerpy as a bird. i'm spouting nonsence here already. STOP.

a translation of the song. if you bother to read it. its fabalously touching
Rainy Night (Junsu)

TRANSLATION

Rain in my heart,
The tears won't stop, tonight
Like something you left behind, temporarily forgotten
I miss you

* This world without you trembles in the dark
It'd be nice if this was all just a dream
I want to see you, oh my girl
The reason I can't meet you
Is because I don't want to hear your goodbye

Baby I still love you

Don't cry anymore,
You're always cryin' baby
And even that part of you is so sweet
Now someone else, not me,
Is wiping away your tears

But I love you, and now
I'm just living inside these memories I can't forget
This feeling is forever
Your scent from that day we embraced will never leave my body
Baby I still love you

I can't take it off, this cross on my chest with your name engraved on it
Baby you're my love

* Repeat

Even now, I love you
(Baby I still love you)
You're unforgettable

I'm just living in memories
This feeling will last forever
Even if ceaseless rain falls on my heart alone,
Eternally drenching it
I can't say "goodbye" cause I love you

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