SOMETHING UTTERLY OUT OF THE WORLD

i have a lot a lot a lot of things to say. really a lot. and i dunno if i should put in down in words here. i'm a mess now. total mess. i keep having many many thoughts going thru my head. and whenever i think of them, my heartbeat jumps to 160/min. trust me. i couldnt sleep last night. i couldnt keep calm. i had to do many things to tire myself out so i can finally sleep without thinking much. even so, i slept at 5am and woke up at 10 plus am. i woke up with a feeling of anticaption. cos i jusr did something crazy. maybe i speak more if it later.

every 10 mins i keep regretting what had i done. i kept thinking if i should stop. but i'll keep having to tell myself to stop thinking. whats done is done. and since i have started, i should just continue. continue continue continue. gahhh.

i finally experienced how it feels to have your mouth go dry because you're in a panicky state. can i just go omg for like nth times?

this is utterly crazee. CRAZEE

*edit*

waiting sucks. can't you just be there 24/7.

its a ridiculous request to make. sorry.

i have nowhere to go. i'm video-less. nothing for me to watch on youtube. i can never understand why during the exam period i just have endless video to watch. and when i am finally free. i'm video-less. haha.

so being video-less i have no where to go except here. i need something to occupy myslef if i dun want to be driven crazy with the situation here.

actually i have been thinking of doing this for a week. i guess i'll just squeeze some time to do it here

i wanted to actually mention a list of songs that has been of a "significant importance" to me since secondary school. they're songs that holds memories for me i guess. okayy so let me just get started racking my brains to remember the songs name. tsk.

sec 1 i dun remember any song that leaves an impt impression on me.

sec 2. i remember. if i am not wrong its that thing you do. why? ehh cos i remember doing a performance for this song. for teacher's day. sec 2 class. the boys don't cooperate. end up it became a all girls performace. i heard got people rumor say very les. tsk tsk. haha.

sec 2 other than this song. i think still got one more by GARETH GATES!!! haha i remember. i borrowed that cd from liyana. the first time i heard his song and i got addicted to one of the song but i forgot which lets see. AHH!! say it isnt so and anyone of us. i remember always singing it with asyqin when we go home together. LOL.

sec 3 and sec 4.hmm the 2 year i got closer with liyana and shi ting after sec 2. and i got to know a new bunch of people. some made a significant spot in my life until now. qin pei and the rest. k lets see.

i remember because of you by kelly clarkson. was a hot hit. everyone of the girls i know had it on their phone, mp3. everyone was just singing to it. i specifically remember shi ting singing to it.

and then there was a song by james blunt! you're beautiful. another song that was on our phone.

and then there was a chinese song. i forget the name of it. but it was the ost of the local drama. by pieree png and dawn yeo. ah i think is xing shan shan or something.

last but not least i think it was the high sch musical song. we're all in this together. we performed to this song for out teacher's day performane. although our form teacher didnt catch it. she was somewhere.

den 2007 there was avril lavinge girlfriend. apologise by onerepublic. sean kingston beautiful girls. another classic one was cry on my shoulder by the deutch idol. gwen stef 4 in the morning. haha tats more or less it.

mid 2007 i fell in love with korean songs. "boyband" but i guess it won be interesting for those who dont listen to them. so i shant mention.

okayy. i mangage to waste more time. crapping.

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